The White Horse

The first time was a revelation,

where have you been all my life?

you put me on a level out of reach.

We play when work is done,

then thirst overpowers trust,

destructive companion consistant.

From the outside they frown,

oblivious to the magic that happens,

Believe that I am man,

regaining pride from abuser.

Satisfied two revolving stars,

Fixation grows like a virus hitting the cracks,

Possession, crave, satisfy, repeat.

Have no partners, sacrificed for you.

Currency flows like water through my hands for you

Salty captain wounded and continues.

Sacrificial body I am, beat me, tear me, make me bleed.

If is replaced, acquired takes the stand.

I’m a liar, deceptive,

you’re always hanging out with dangerous people.

I’ve spent time in the gutter behind my love for you.

I treat you with such care and you leave these marks on my arms,

showing everyone that we’re in love.

 Leaving you is worse than anything.

I can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t socialize with friends,

and spend many nights in a pool of sweat, shaking, aching.

wishing I were dead, questioning if I am in hell.

My body moans for you like a whale in the ocean,

frail and mentally broken I continue to live.

Met some of your ex’s. They had the same love for you,

and went through the same agony.

They tell me that it will pass with time,

I will stop vomiting, my muscles will stop aching and my bowels will

recover.

One of your exes’s told me he turned you out and you made a whole lot of money, all customers returned for more.

But then he fell in love with you.

Women fall for you too, such a tragedy to see a flower have it’s petals torn off. But you do it.

You love harder than anything I’ve ever known.

We do it to ourselves after all.

Oh, one kiss won’t hurt me. That kiss, that first experiment, opens you up to a new world.

 I float on clouds without a care in the world, unadulterated love flows through your veins, pure, warm, calming, when you near.

I close your eyes and lay back as you kiss me, completely overcome by your love.

Having her love is great but you must always know her hangouts,

at all times because one kiss can turn into a make out session that can last years.

I do not suggest anyone try her love, its strength kills many.

If you do, know this: It will be part of your life forever in one form or another. And it’s against the law, this love. Not so much the lovers but for those that turn her out. You will have to find one of these people to stay in contact with her. Otherwise you will be chasing her down while your nose runs and your puking.

Sweet red rose.

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